Trigger after trigger after mother fucking trigger.
I miss being able to smoke in my apartment when it’s cold.
Wish I didn’t have housemates.
Oh would you look at that. I’m really upset. Hahahahahahahahahaha
Well that was embarrassing.
I can’t even fix myself but I’m still expected to fix & help other people. I wish I had seen your message sooner. I wish I could have been there for you tonight. I let you down by being selfish & not paying attention. If I could be at your doorstep right now I would.
Literature should really have a trigger warning. Feel like there’s a smoldering fire in the center of my chest that’s suffocating me. I can’t talk anymore; it’s too difficult.
This is why I don’t talk to people about my problems. I tried & she missed it. It was unintentional but she didn’t see it. She didn’t see the long post I sent & that’s the one the mattered. That’s the one I needed to talk about. That’s the one I needed someone to see & tell me what to do. I’m upset & have no one to turn to.